i guess we could never be that close as i thought we can be.
you guys were the ones i trusted most, the ones which i went through most hardships with, the ones which brought me up when i fell, but there's always a gap no matter what. i dont blame you guys, cos i know i aint a good one either.
everyone has their own secrets, their own thinking and their own little story that is hidden beneath, i will nv get to know them, i will never get to see them. But i respect your privacy, its just that i'm still sad over that i cant be the one that is the closest to you, i still cant find one yet.
sisters is what we always call each other, i suppose we are that close, we dunit calls and smses everyday to prove that we are close. But i suppose both of us are too similar in some ways, both of us will feel the same way under some circumstances, but i suppose there is still another sister there for us(:
why am i saying all these? i dunno why also, just felt a lil here and there, i just need time to get over stuff and carry on, i just needed someone to care and be here for me.
sometimes there are liars all ard, but i suppose they didnt lie to me delibrately, but you know, when u're down u'll just feel that no one in this world keeps their promises to u, cos they didnt know how much their promises mean to u. what i can say is, they mean alot to me, cos they are the reasons that can convince me to be happy, they are the only reasons.
you said we'll hav lunch one day last month;
you said you'll do sth for me last month;
you said u'll give me your two cents;
you said you'll be here for me no matter what;
you said you'll get that for me;
you said you'll change so that i can change too;
but all those were lies till now, cos it wasnt fufilled yet. i'll wait for the day you fufill your promise to me.
my hand hurts;
